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The First Half of My Life
Episode 7
You two sisters can dine at your own pace. I'll be going now.
You brought the wine and made the dishes. Are you sure you don't want to eat with us?
I still have some business to tend to, so I'll get going.
I know you look down on me.
I know you think I'm someone who only knows how to drink, eat, and play and has no ambition in life.
You think I am a burden to Tang Jing and that I always waste her time.
I'm also always third wheeling on your romantic dinner dates.
Now that Chen Junsheng has dumped me,
you probably think I was a deserving fool.
I don't think that terribly of you.
But I do hope that after you finish eating and drinking, you will think about
how you can overcome all of this and win the game.
Your behavior this afternoon was really refreshing.
I thought you would have held onto Chen Junsheng, begging and crying for him not to leave.
If you had really acted that way, I really would have looked down on you.
I have let out my anger, slammed the door, and left.
What should I do next?
What can I do to win this game?
I don't have even an ounce of dignity left.
This is a game that Chen Junsheng dragged me into.
He was the one who gave me my betting money,
and now he wants to kick me out of the game. What chips do I have left on the table?
It's not like Chen Junsheng is the only person in this world who can work and make money.
If he can provide for you, I can, too.
Then how do I explain all this to Ping'er?
What kind of life can I give Ping'er?
In fact, Ping'er has been the one comforting me, saying,
"Mom, Daddy said that after the divorce, we'll still be together like the old times and eat together and play together."
"We won't be like other people who decide to forget about each other completely."
How can I tell him that his dad is lying?
That he is saying all this so that you'll relax and not realize
he is about to abandon you to become someone else's dad?
Aside from drinking here, there is nothing else I can do or say.
Chen Junsheng wants to teach you a lesson.
No one in this world can be your safe haven for life.
You can only rely on yourself to be your own refuge.
Even if your refuge is in poor condition, it's better than relying on someone else.
Even though this may sound cliche, but it's true: there's always a way out.
Since you have to start over anyways, then just start over now and make your way up.
Don't try to encourage me with the so-called successful businessman career advice.
I've already this kind of advice in my friends' group.
Like a seventy-year-old planting orange trees and a sixty-year-old beginning the second peak in his life.
It's only because they went on to be successful that they are seen and recognized by others.
But there are more people who tried to make something for themselves but never succeeded.
They don't accomplish anything.
Don't they just get blamed, become old or get sick and die?
We're not trying to make you a successful person.
You just have to be able to provide for yourself.
But I'm thirty years old!
Are you asking me to work at a breakfast street stall or become a sales associate?
It's only because you have so much money that you can say such things.
You've never had or raised a child.
So you don't understand how providing for a child
requires a thousand times more effort than working in an office.
I understand. I really do.
A lot of my co-workers are single moms.
- Do you want me to arrange for you to speak with them? - No!
They'll tell me that they feel like they're living with purpose and have an endless amount of energy.
Which one of them will be willing to admit that they only started working because they had no choice?
Which one of them would admit that they're tired and that their bodies are weak and sick?
They're just like you.
You tell other people that you enjoy being single,
but you actually really want to get married.
You would never admit that you feel insecure
and can't stand him two-timing with other women.
Luo Zijun, listen,
I'm not here to scare you. But if you continue living like this,
Chen Junsheng can come up with ways to take your son from you.
You guys can drink at your own pace. I'll get going.
Welcome, Brother Han.
Lao Zhuo, please get me the usual.
- Two side dishes and one drink, please. - Got it.
Are you in a bad mood?
It's normal for Tang Jing to help a friend in need.
You know everything?
What do you think this place is? Your company's diner.
All the people from your company who came here today were all talking about that.
Even if I didn't want to know, they'd make sure I know,
especially if it's something that concerns you. Don't you agree?
I would definitely know everything.
Lao Zhuo, you know me.
You know that I usually don't handle, let alone listen, to these kind of things.
But because she is Tang Jing's best friend,
I sincerely helped her analyze the situation.
However, not only did she not thank me, but she also showed me up in front of Tang Jing.
So was Chen Jungsheng's wife the reason you left and came here?
It's because I can't stand being with her for an extra minute.
Look at how happy you are (sarcastically).
You're right, I don't even know why I'm so angry.
I know why. You think it's all so lowly.
That's right, a miserable wretch.
Hi, where are you?
Are you free? I have a favor to ask.
Okay, bye.
I personally accept the advice you just gave.
I also understand how you work.
Although it's expensive, but the results make it all worth it.
My one condition is that this case is completely under me.
No matter which company I use for this case, you cannot object.
No problem. As long as you're the one handling the case,
I don't care which company you use. You're the most important.
But...
But what?
You know that we are currently in the middle of conversations with B&T.
Are you talking about Tang Jing?
Yes.
Should you two talk with each other first?
We will have to choose between you two sooner or later.
What do we need to talk about?
Friendship is friendship, and work is work.
She doesn't know I came to meet with you. It's best if you don't tell her.
Then what if...will she...
She knows how I operate. Each man for himself.
If I can steal her business, that means she still has some holes to figure out.
If she can steal my business,
I will applaud her.
You two can be considered as some experimental lovers.
Lovers don't usually have a long-term relationship.
What kind of relationship do you think can be long-term?
Mentor and mentee relationship? Friendship?
Or competitors?
I think that regardless of the type of relationship,
if you want to keep a long-term relationship,
you need to find someone who can motivate and refresh you. Wouldn't you agree?
I still need to meet a friend,
so I'll get going.
- I'll wait for your news.- Bye-bye.
You came here alone for breakfast?
Yup.
Why?
Because I have time.
And since we can already go to really far places for dinner,
why can't we go to a nearby place for breakfast?
Are you free at lunch?
Why? Are you going to take me out to lunch?
Can you take some lunch home for me?
I won't go.
She'll probably get mad at me if I even send her some takeout. Do you think I can afford her anger?
If I wanted to send her takeout, I can call and ask them to deliver it myself.
Will I still need to come here, look for you, and trouble you to go there?
What else can I do besides bringing her takeout?
Could you help me talk some sense into her?
I've already said what I can, and I've tried to think of every solution I can.
But it's all no use.
I can't even talk properly with her, so how can I talk some sense into her?
I'm concerned if I don't talk with her, she won't eat.
But if I talk with her, she probably won't even drink water.
I think you should find her a psychiatrist.
Only professionals who get paid can endure her.
But your track record is better than a psychiatrist.
Over the course of three years, you were able to help an older woman
who attempted suicide three times to become a top business woman.
To this day, all the newcomers at B&T will hear this story during their orientation.
Please, that took three years.
However, I am not willing to talk three minutes, let alone three years, with her.
If you can help her,
then I will truly believe that there is nothing you can't handle.
Don't use that kind of tactic on me. It won't work at all.
Fine.
It's true that Zijun has already caused you a lot of trouble.
And it's inconvenient that all this happened while you were on vacation, and I was super busy.
I'll take care of her myself.
I made an appointment with Carmen's Adam.
Adam?
He lives around here. Don't you know?
Since I'm already here, I might as well meet with him.
Okay, then go to your meeting. I'll just stay a little longer.
But this case is completely under my control
No matter which company I use for this case, you cannot object.
No problem. As long as you're in charge, I don't care which company you use.
You're the most important.
Luo Zijun, this is He Han.
I know you're inside. Please open the door.
I have Tang Jing's keys. If you won't open the door, I'll just come right in.
If there is something you like to eat in here, please eat it.
If there isn't anything you like, let me know,
and I'll take it away and give it someone who needs it,
so that it doesn't get thrown away or rot.
I won't eat anything. Take it all.
UV rays can help cure depression.
If you can muster the energy to run a few laps under the sun, you'll realize that
some things aren't as bad as you think they are.
How much longer do you plan to live this dirty, filthy lifestyle at Tang Jing's place?
Tang Jing should be your last fallback plan.
If one day she abandons you,
then you'll be one thousand times more pitiful than you are now.
Although I am a man and have not experienced what you're going through,
I have seen other people go through similar situations.
Can you please stop talking?
Tang Jing has already told me all the chicken-noodle-soup-for-the-soul things you're about to say.
Okay.
Frankly, I don't care how you think or feel.
I also don't care about your past, present, or future.
But I care about Tang Jing.
So when I saw that you made her place so gloomy,
and saw you cry until you're about to die and drink until you vomit,
and saw that you gave her so many additional worries outside work,
I decided to come talk with you.
I met Tang Jing before you were even in the picture.
Also, if you care so much about Tang Jing, why did you have a one-night-stand with another woman?
I didn't!
If you don't have any hard evidence,
then you cannot jump to conclusions based on rumors.
Also, regarding this one-night-stand that never happened,
I have already explained myself for a year. Do you still not get it?
I don't want to talk with you about this.
If you really care about Tang Jing,
or if you are the least bit grateful
for all her patience and acceptance of you, then you should at least show some change for the better.
No one was born to serve you. Tang Jing wasn't, and Chen Junsheng wasn't.
If you really believe they were, then you're a pitiful fool.
Get up and take a shower.
I'll turn on the water for you.
I don't want to shower.
After you shower, put on some light makeup and wear something nice.
If you don't have any clothes, you can wear Tang Jing's.
Why?
I'm going to take you out for a walk.
I won't leave.
I'll take you to see the husband whom you thought you knew so well
and what his work life is like.
After that, you can come back here.
And then you'll realize that this divorce isn't a natural problem, but a man-made problem.
You'll understand where you made a mistake and where you lost.
Once you know where you went wrong, you can correct it.
I don't want to.
You can also see all the girls around him.
Don't think that all the girls around him are the young, pretty wallflowers at the front desk.
Wallflowers don't attack, but the lively, energetic women do.
I'll take you to B&T.
Although it's a different company from the Chensing that Chen Junsheng works in,
the work details and human interactions are more or less the same.
You said before that you worked in an international company.
But the foreign enterprises now, I'm afraid, is quite different from before.
Before, there are a lot of men.
Right now, there are also a lot of women, beautiful ,
and with high educational background
If you only lost one round in a game where you thought you will win, it's fine.
But if you don't even know what reason you lost,
then I fear that you will keep losing for the next few years.
So please remember, knowing oneself and knowing your enemy, you surely will win every fight.
Hurry and come in.
How were you able to do it?
Take her to look around first.
Although trying to understand the work environment of Chen Junsheng just now is a bit too late,
I still feel that it is a must.
I won't go in anymore.
So that I won't need to do fake greetings when I see our old co-workers.
This row with glass, this one with windows,
these offices all belong to us.
They are consultation offices.
My office.
We've divided the different groups according to the different industries.
For example, there is a specific industry
for the pharmaceutical trade, for the banking trade,
also there's an electronic trade.
They're specifically separated.
This area is ours, it's the supporting department.
Financial affairs, HR, legal affairs, it's all there.
Department of Information technology.
Over there, there's a large area with a lot of people.
It's our Department of Information Management, called Data Department.
They're responsible for gathering every market data,
the company's internal data and third party data.
They have to sort out and gather the data.
Ling Ling's at that department.
We're here just watching them, will it disturb their work?
It won't.
Look at everyone quietly immersed in their work. If you don't shout or yell, nobody's gonna notice you.
Act nonchalant, and everybody's gonna take you for air.
I never thought a foreign capital company's operating rhythm was so fast.
You have to take small steps in order to run.
But what's the point of acting like a robot?
They also don't have time to take care of their families, children,
there's also no time for friends.
When you don't understand it, don't rush to conclusions first.
Since you're here, let's just go eat some dinner.
It's been a few days since you've eaten a proper meal.
Just now I booked a very nice place.
I don't wanna go. You guys eat.
Don't you want to understand where these people go
and what Chen Jun Sheng goes after work and before going home?
Let's go.
Mr. He is here. Are we following the regular etiquette?
Yes, regular etiquette please.
If you really want to drink alcohol, you have to eat first.
Come, first fill your stomach.
Drink after filling your stomach.
You are forcing me to become a 'caring auntie' soon.
Pour.
Everyday, Chen Jun Sheng works extra hours until late night.
A lot of times, he's not at the company, but he's here.
Chen Jun Sheng has never drank alcohol.
He doesn't necessarily come to drink alcohol.
This place is also a part of the company's lifestyle.
Socialization's aim is getting stronger, and in here is also quite easy
to discuss projects with colleagues and clients.
We at B&T all like to come here.
So you can see the robotic clock spring-like people here.
They'll most likely come here after changing their lipstick color and a different pair of earrings
And just like that, they become a different person.
Dear, long time no see.
Hello.
Isn't that one the girl wearing glasses that I encounter at the company?
Good eyesight.
So...
You said Chen Jun Sheng comes to the bar often... That...
You're talking about Ling Ling?The people from those ranks
don't really come here. Only if they are called.
After all they can't sit at the same table as the consultants.
But...
But what?
Let's drink first. We'll talk about Ling Ling later.
This place, compared to the company this morning, is more charming.
At this moment where they nurture their strength and bid their time, you can see their vividness and brilliant, vibrant lights more.
In reality, these girls aren't good looking.
However, the way their confidence, craftiness, affluence,
dynamics, and ambition in career
These few expressions aren't enough to compare to these girls.
The vigorous life force they emanate.
♫ And I'm left here wondering just how ♫
♫ How could this seem so ♫
What are you doing?
Binge drinking is a method for high schoolers.
Middle-aged people should always consider drinking less.
The first reason is because once you become drunk, you will cause an inconvenience to others.
The second reason is because we have a lot of work waiting for us to do tomorrow.
The third reason is if you drink all of this alcohol, the bill is not going to be cheap.
Paying to get drunk is too extravagant.
Exactly.
♫ Our passion subdued ♫
Let's go back to the company. Come.
Do what at the company?
Let's go!
♫ Now I don't care if we have to rush ♫
♫ Just tell me that you'll stay ♫
See? Everyday, at this hour, there's a lot of people working extra hours.
So, when Chen Jun Sheng told you he was working until late at night
maybe he was really here working until late.
Let's go the office and sit for a bit.
You just sit over there, put yourself in that place a bit.
If one day it gets busy and then at night work just piles up in front of your eyes,
on the first night, you're scared you won't be able to sleep
and on the next day there may be a large amount of work waiting for you
how do you feel about it?
If at that hour, there is a person willing to stay and help you,
or even if they don't help, but stay to keep you company,
bringing you some hot tea and some midnight snacks.
If it was you, would you fall in love with him?
You're saying
Chen Jun Sheng and that girl
got together this way?
It seems you got it.
I'm going.
Wait. I know some of the things said aren't nice to hear.
But I feel the need to have to remind you.
Sit.
If you want to keep your child by your side.
Here's my advice: you'd better find a good lawyer. Strike first and gain the upper hand.
As for estates, try to make Chen Junsheng leave the marriage with nothing (no possessions or property). It's possible.
Get rid of the feelings and think of this divorce as just another case.
In order to do this you must do some preparations to minimize the loss.
Let Chen Junsheng pay. The more the better.
All of your youthful years, how much are they worth? Calculate it.
Don't get emotional. Don't be embarassed.
Haggle over every cent. Otherwise you won't stand it and it'll be too late for regrets.
Thank you.
I'll go with you.
No need. I'll call you when I get home.
Didn't you say you weren't willing to help me on this?
Didn't you say that you won't help me enlighten Luo Zijun even if I beat you to death?
Why did you decide to change your mind?
Did you do something wrong towards me?
I didn't.
You stole my client again?
Can you have a little bit more imagination?
Didn't you say that if I am able to handle this Luo Zijun,
then there is no soul in this world that I can't save?
So I couldn't help it but try.
No matter why, thank you.
I don't know if having you here is a good thing
but whenever I do something wrong I always think to myself.
At least there's He Han here.
I know that even if you say you are refusing me a hundred times,
You'll always help me, and help me do it well.
But in the end, I always stop giving it my all.
You call this not giving it your all?
You're just giving yourself too high of an expectation.
You hope that you do every work to perfection, to be perfectly need and organized.
Wanting to also resolve their friends problems.
Wanting to try your best every second.
Hope that one will have plentiful energy always.
Even if others are going to evaluate you, you want them to say that you are diligent in making your self better, like bathing in spring breeze.
While I do all these for you exactly for the opposite reasons, I don't want you be this tired from now on.
Can't do anything about it. This is my personality. It's hard to change it anymore.
Maybe one day, when I get finally enlightened,
I can just let go of everything. But that's not now.
♫ Your smile is the only form of blissfulness in my eyes ♫
♫ Your sight ♫
I'm sorry, it's urgent!
♫ Only sunlight ♫
♫ Before, I used to chase after your sight ♫
♫ Treated you as my direction ♫
♫ Your everything bestowed the glory where I existed ♫
♫ Yet now you look towards the distance ♫
♫ Chose to forget ♫
♫ Which direction should I drive myself towards to? ♫
Hello, welcome!
What do you want to eat?
What do you have?
- Quicker, slower.- Quicker.
Noodles.
Okay, noodles it is.
- One bowl of noodles.- Okay!
[ Chen Jun Sheng ]
That Chen Jun Sheng... Comes here often?
You know him?
I'm his wife.
Thanks.
The drink's not bad.
Tomorrow morning, everyone at the company will say
Mr. He came back late last night and had a date with Ms. Tang in her office.
I don't care. What's your worry?
Nothing. Actually, I've gotten used to the scornful glances of your fangirls.
Good thing I am now in a high position and has great power.
If I am a newbie, I would have been stepped on by them into a QR code.
What are you laughing about?
You looking at their profiles everyday gives you quite some sense of achievement, isn't it?
Heard Mr. He likes nate light walks, so every night at 8pm
with heavy make up or uncombed hair,
they leave the house to go jogging, all sparkling.Have you ever seen them?
Don't you find them horrifying?
A little bit.
I also heard that Mr. He went to the beach to snorkel.
And then the next weekend, there will be several photos of bikinis from Sanya
that will be posted.
Baring those white flesh that have never seen the sunlight all year.
Posing with a...and say that they are jumping into the water already.
Tang Jing, you're really mean.
Do you mean Vivian?
Didn't you say you already blacklisted her?
Didn't you say you wouldn't be jealous of her?
What I mean is
a woman like that will really do anything to achieve her goals.
Already old but didn't progress at all in terms of how to interact with people.
You are still bothered by Vivian.
You said that it's fine, it's in the past, won't go after it anymore. All are just fake?
Or let me put it in another way.
My criminal record with you hasn't been canceled yet. Am I right?
A year ago, she was in your house late at night,
lied on your bed to take a selfie, and then sent it to the whole world.
She said that it was her first time staying in a man's house overnight.
The whole company and even all the people in this building saw it.
Even people who I usually see but never really greet me came to me to express sympathy.
And in the posts that she did within that year,
8 out of 10 are all to fawn on you.
Tell me how I can I just let it pass and not go after it?
Whatever she said or expressed,
that is her own business. I never really minded her. Didn't that already explained the problem?
Moreover, how many times have I said it that I wasn't home that night.
I went to drink with my friends.
Yes, she was also there when I was drinking with my friend.
After I drink too much, my friend takes me home.
I totally don't know when she lied on my bed,
when she took the photograph, and when did she send it.
It was also the next morning, when I woke up and saw
that there are 100 messages on my wechat that I realized what has happened.
I forgot to tell you that Vivian has always been friendly to me.
She frequently tried to talk about you.
After you resigned, she even especially confided on me her sadness.
She said that once you've already decided on which company you'll go, she'll also follow.
No matter where I go, doesn't she think of going there too.
From now on, no matter where I go, she and I cannot be on the same place.
Are you satisfied now?
Tang Jing, this matter has already happened.
No matter if I say that it's not true or that you don't believe it,
it is already there.
How much patience and strength must we really spend
before we can leap over it
and let us walk a step closer to each other?
I already did everything that I can for a mistake like this that I never committed.
Why do you think I went through such huge trouble to buy and change my house?
It is because of that photograph.
I don't want you to keep remembering that photograph
whenever you go to my house.
I'm sorry.
Do you still want to go eat a midnight snack?
Go to Old Zhuo's place?
Okay!
If I didn't recognize it wrong, this must be the person I replaced,
Mr. He Han, right?
This is the new associate, Luo Ping.
Hello.
Seems to fall short, compared to me.
Mr. He.
I won't bother with you being able to cover the sky with one hand (do anything he wants) before while you were in B&T.
But now that you're gone, may you also take your soul with you
and leave cleanly? Stop affecting us.
especially Tang Jing.
Furthermore, I know Tang Jing doesn't respect me
is because you're behind her back, supporting her?
- What do you mean?- Tang Jing,
go grab a taxi first.
Respect? Respect is earned.
Just with this look of yours of being anxious about your personal gains and losses,
and you still want to talk about respect within B&T? I fear that will be quite hard.
He Han, listen. I don't care that you and Tang Jing fell in love, on and off, it's fine.
That one night stand with Vivian is also fine.
At work, they are my subordinates so they must follow my principles.
If you keep hanging around like this, let me warn you,
I will use B&T's strength to steal your top clients.
He Han!
How can you hit me?
Do you know why I hit you?
Because you said improper things.
Why did you say Vivian and I had an one night stand?
Moreover, I'm telling you. I'm not at B&T anymore.
So, me hitting you has nothing to do with the company, it's a private matter.
So I'll just be eager
to hit whatever I want.
I see you, I hit you.
Let's go.
Got it?
"In The Pouring Rain" by Ye Linsheng
♫ In the torrential rain, ♫
♫ among the busy cars ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear ♫
♫ I hold my breath, ♫
♫ watching you as you leave ♫
♫ Why do I feel my heart slightly wavering? ♫
♫ When did I start becoming used to ♫
♫ your presence? ♫
♫ Your calls always appear at the perfect time ♫
♫ My heart has sold me out ♫
♫ I still have a little hope ♫
♫ that you will come back, searching for me ♫
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, ♫
♫ watching you as you run towards me ♫
♫ My heart is slightly wavering ♫